the other side of me

mlm ni mlm yg interesting pd ak..hahahaha.. mlm ni borak ngan osya pasal fesyen!! FESYEN OKAYY!!! hahahaha.. 1 topik yg mayb syar pk die xsepatutnye borak ngan ak sbb ak slekeh *pd die* hahahaha..

my other side cme open time2 tertentu je..pd org tertentu..ak xske open..cz xspesel la kalo smue org da tau..xsuprise la kan??? hahaha.. terlampau tertutup smpai syar n ain sndr xpasan ak cmne..hahaha

aaaaaaa..tp mlm ni syar da tau ak cmne..she knows my other side..hahaha..

so tonite's conclusion.. i manage to get B+ instead of C for my appearance based on 'Syar's Appearance Grading ' hahahahah..

lawak ah mlm ni seyh..

u decide it..

nk wat drawing or tgk movie??
drawing??
movie??
movie??
movie????

definitely movie laaaaa..hahaha

you are The Laughing Soul..

cmon anep!! what's in dis blog..stays in dis motherfucker blog!!!

u'd created dis blog is to square urself from ur reality..ur desires..ur emotions..
so u can pull urself back into ur circle..

u'd promise that once u wrote it in this blog..u wont bring it up back..no matter how pain it may be..how desperate u might want it..how happy it will if it turn out to be..

now put the fucking mask back!!
remember who u r..
The Laughing Soul..

it's just about fish

one day..u bought a fish..so said that the fish was so beautiful..u love it..so u put it inside ur very own aquarium..

but the fish dat u love sometimes likes to bite u.. smtimes u cried because of da pain.. so u decided to put the fish that u once love into another aquarium..

another day..u managed to catch another fish..so to say u love it to.. so u put it in ur very own aquarium..

the new fish never bites u..never..

after some time..u wanna play with the old fish..surprisingly it didn't bite u.. so u'd decided to throw away the new fish into the river and put the old fish back in ur very own aquarium..

but then the old fish bite u again..

u cried and ran towards the river.. u tried to fish back the new fish..snap! it caught to ur bait..bleeding..

so u put it back into ur very own aquarium..u played with the new fish.. it was fun..

the old fish was in another aquarium for sake..

but then u felt like wanna play with the old fish..surprisingly it didn't bite u.. so u throw away the new fish into the river and put back the old fish in ur very own aquarium.. again..

but then the old fish bite u again..

so once again u ran to the river and tried to catch the new fish again.. u caught it!! but the new fish was bleeding again..

u quickly put the new fish into ur very own aquarium while the old fish was in another aquarium..

u played again with the new fish..

it was a circle..u'll keep repeating the story..

until the new fish can no longer bleed..even if u catch it for so many time..

at that time..the story is almost at its end..

triggering myself

is it ok for me to pull the trigger back??
it's been a while since i let it go..
hahahaha... i just miss the thrill man!!

off to bed for tomorrow's pop quiz repeat version..hahaha

forbidden shop!!!

me with my extra smugging face cz first time masok kdai cmni..hahaha

sumpah ni first time ak masok kedai cmni..mcm kedai teddy tales la..kdai2 yg jual mcm brg2 romantik klasik..some shit cmtu la.. hahaha.. sbnrnye ad hati nk masok..but somehow i just cant stand the smell.. smue kdai yg sejenis cmni kat mne2 pown la..mesti ad bau yg sme..bau bunge ros yg mati kne awet tu..hahaha

ari yg sme gak..b4 ak masok kdai ni..ak masok kedai emas habib jewel!!!! gler laaaaa.. mmbr ak nk cr cincin utk awek die.. slame ni ak masok kdai emas ble mak abah ak ad je.. abah ak slalu masok kedai mas cr stuff2 cm gelang whatsoever.. so ni ble masok ngan mmbr2..sbb masing2 nk cr cincin gelang utk awek..trase diri ak di ambang menghampiri alam perkahwinan..hahaha..shittt!!!

tgu je la pas pose ni...kui2..but i can promise u habib jewel ring laaa...nyahahaha..

things falling apart

npe syar?? what's wrong hottie?? ko ok x?? ak call xangkat..msg x reply..fb xle nk post kat wall ko.. sng cite ak xle nk reach ko.. ko xpnh nk jauh ngan ak cmni.. ko even jauh ngan kimah ak tgk..ko xreply post die.. kalo ko xreply post ak ak phm la..banding ngan kimah..ko lg rapat ngan die..

haaaa... ko da la kat aussie..snsrg.. xd spe nk tgk ko melainkan ko kne tgk diri sndr je.. ak kat cni n kwn2 ko bole dgr je kalo ko nk cite pape.. tp kalo ko xcite kteorg xle nk tlg or tau pape.. dakara..story la syar..jgn simpan snsrg..

arini ak mkn ns ayam..roti john n bubur kacang merah.. ak tau kalo ak ym ngan ko mesti ko tanye soklan tu kan.. smlm ak mkn roti john je sbb ak br nk bek sakit.. arini ak plan nk g kelas xg trawikh cz ak ad kelas mlm.. seee..ak da hafal pe ko nk tanye.. XD

syar..tc tau..Allah will always be there for u..we as ur fren will always pray for u..

superbly invinsible somebody

blog ni khas pasal kwn2 ak.. errrr..xksh la kalo dieorg xingat ak..tp kalo ak stil ingat dieorg..i'll consider to put u in my post..hahaha.. kat cni ak nk cite some of my friends..yg dl sememeh la..yg plek2 la..yg nmpk cm len dr len..tp ad smting yg pd ak..makes them sooo fucking spesel..

ain ---> adorable..cute..hyperactive..pndai masak..skillfull in many ways i might say..totally independent..a freak sometimes..honest(either in good or bad terms)..ROCK!!!.. what's interesting about her is that i think she had the most exactly same personalities as mine.. the way we think of something..the way we lived..the way we talk..we shared lots of same interest..food..music..surrounding.. ble die pkai tudung..nmpk mcm mak ak je.. cme ko lg putih dr mak..hahaha..prangai ko pown sket2 mcm mak..klakar..kuat..lasak(mak ak kelasi kapal dl)..kalo mrh tu mrh btol..hahah.. i thing about her is that i can feel her..though she's not in front of me.. i can always tell when she's there..by the blinking of my left eye..

syarnissa ---> hottie!! sexy for sure(sexy in my term)..tall n skinny..likes to wear what i consider to be weird stuff..clothing..tp ak sronok ble die cite pasal pkaian cmtu..sbb ak noob bab2 nk style2 ni..talkative!! i she called me..if i can speak for atleast 3seconds..that shud be good enough..hahaha.. so like a mom..caring..sweet..bnyk bg nsht.. she got an eye problem..i dun know the name is..but it can make her blind..even now she's almost blind.. but u my dear..so strong.. ak xpnh jmpe org yg kuat cm ko lg..dr kecik ko tanggung bnd ni smpai la skarang..stil ko mampu idop..mampu survive..bnyk bnd ko rs ko nk achive ko dpt..smpai ad yg org len yg sempurna xmampu dpt tp ko dpt.. God is always with u..it not luck..it's Him.. how i envy u.. tp kalo di bg pilihan idop ak mcm skarang..or jd mcm ko n trime pe yg ko dpt..termasok pape kelebihan yg ko ad..ak rs ak xmampu pilih jalan ko.. i'm not as strong as u..physically yes..mentally NO! someone propose kat ko!! i shud be happy cz u finally gonna get urself a bf..but i'm not epi..not too epi.. dun know why.. afraid of losing u?? jeles?? xd spe nk msg ak nnt?? jgn pk bnyk anep!!

kkbians ---> ni kre dak2 mrsm kkb spm 06 nye batch la.. teachers considered us as the best batch in academic..troublesome(not juvenile okayy)..chaos maker..enlighten the school with great memories.. ad cikgu yg ngam ngan kteorg..cz kteorg mcm kewwwlll~~~ tp yg consider kteorg mcm setan..haha.. ske wat bising.. paling dieorg xske ble dieorg dgr kteorg ad wat smting shit..tp xdpt nk tgkp..hahaha.. cnth la.. 5thn kteorg same2..xsilap ak list student merokok mcm 3 helai A4 paper..tp budak batch ak yg kantoi sepanjang 5thn cme 5org je..hahahah.. kteorg pnh ad 3 kes polis.. 2 kes sbb kteorg pukol budak yg kantoi curik kaw2 nye..1 lg kes sbb cikgu pukol mmbr kteorg.. tp ak syg dieorg..pd ak..life ak start ble ak jmpe dieorg..ak tau pasal dunia sejak ak jmpe dieorg..everything i'd learn from them.. ad ms choices yg dieorg wat xbtol..ad smpai ms dieorg mesti sedar blek.. wat slh 1 bnd..but if they can turn back..it's good enough.. we're always stay in pack..xpnh pecah2..xd yg nk jd anjing cikgu..jd kaki report xd pown..not even dak2 bapok.. teachers wont get any shit kalo try nk pancing2 kteorg.. what i've learned there is not just about academic..books..shitty equations.. but i've learned things that makes me who i am today.. oh and 1 more..life in university is sux!

sktsg/gombak homies ---> aaaa..i wish i could turn back time..nk g time zaman skola rndh.. how i wish i had known u'll better at dat time.. i'm soo sori..dl ak xgeti nk gaul ngan org..spe yg sekelas ngan ak je yg ak lyn/knl.. kalo xsilap ak..since ak masok kelas 3T smpai la abes 6K..almost 90% student dlm org yg sme sejak drjh 3 smpai drjh 6..ahahahah.. no wonder la org yg ak knl n org yg knl ak mcm izzati..ain..syakirin..izhar(sbb 1 taman ngan ak)..poji..apek..n ad lg la yg stil ingat ak..tq sbb ingat ak..hahaha.. ad je dak2 kelas len yg ak knl..but siyesly..ak mle knl rmai org ms ak drjh 6..ak jmpe awek pown ms drjh 6!! hahaha.. ad la dr kelas len yg ak knl..pengawas ke.. ali..hidayah sesungut..syikin..aaaaaaaaa??? ak lpe da.. ak ingat je muke korang..even yg ak xpnh kwn pown ak ingat muke korang..cme kdg2 ak xle recall kalo org cbe describe or bgtau name..ak kne tgk muke..ak ingat je kimah..cz die dl kecik gler pastu mate sepet..ak ingat lg hasyimah..tp muke die da len gler..ad lg la..cme ak je xingat.. nk wat cmne..sktsg tu ad ribu2 student.. batch ak je da mcm nk 1000++ je..sumpah ak xle knl smue..hahah.. ad yg pas spm ak br jmpe..aura stsg tu ad kat dieorg..tu yg ak bole cam dieorg.. mcm acap panjang n muk..dieorg dl 1 utm kejap ngan ak..feel sktsg dieorg kuat dow..hahah.. u guys had become rather an interesting person nowadays.. ad yg da fly..ak yg feymes..mcm syikin..model..ikon uitm..hahaha.. reen bnyk men flickers die tu..ak slalu je bkk flickers ko reen..lawa2 gmbr ea.. kimah n da geng manage to handle their first live talk show.. hebat2 la korang!! ak mcm xd pe sngt..haha.. 1 sem lg nk abes degree..tu je la..besides career rugby ak..futsal..lpk2 wat kecoh..jamming(ak nyanyi n men drum XD)..cr bakal bini(hopefully luck with me)..ari2 tahan sakit cz jari2 ak da rosak sbnrnye.. not much..but i'm proud to hv u guys as my friends..at the very least..someone whom i once know..still around me..continue living..

fifilora ---> woohoooo!!! not exactly a friend..not to begin with.. she's my first lover..so to say.. kalo xkre awek pown..atleast ak kire die ni pmpn first yg ad dlm hati ak dl.. dl la..bkn skarang..bkn smpai ble2..ms tu drjh 6 kowt!! feeling yg ak rs plek..syg kat someone..rs nk kat die..minah ni la yg bikin dl.. ms tu drjh 6..xd nk dating ke..xd kuar date mkn2 ke.. smue kiddy stuff je.. klakar gler ble pk blek..prasaan tu dtg sndr..ilang sndr..totally ms f2.. ms f2 tu kre last n ever ak dgr sore die.. quite a memory.. xd pape yg spesel pasal die..cme kalo org tanye spe first kapel ak.. fifilora name die..


kalo kte mampu idop slamenye..ak rs org2 yg ak sebot nkat atas ni xkn jd org yg spesel pd ak.. they'll just be "another person around me".. nnt boring la kalo idop slame lamenye tp kwn ngan org yg sme..mesti nk cr org len..

tp sbb life ni sementare..idop ni sekejap..i'll be loving them as if tomorrow will be the end..baki mase2 yg ad ni ak akan spend ngan dieorg selagi ak mampu.. tu yg ak pk la..

semporna..

after all this years..
i smoke bcoz of u..

'ak ske laki yg smoke..nmpk cool!!' what u'd said..hahaha..

smtimes i wonder why i can't see my future..kinda blurry..my hopes like upside down..yes..no..yes..no..

you're so strong..n i'm still weak..
dats why i'll keep on smoking..

blink2 lefty!!!

okaiiri ain!!! yappari..kelip2 kiri mmg ko.. let see...

dl kelip kiri..
ko msg ak ajak teman g klcc..cr bot hiking..

dl kelip kiri..
ko ajak ak teman g klcc lg..sj2 je lpk..

dl kelip kiri..
ko blek msia..

skarang kelip kiri lg..i was sure it's gonna be u..


ngah tgu kelip kiri lg..for syar plak.. die mayb nk blek msia gak.. sooooo..kalo kelip lg..means it's for her..hahaha..

love both of u!!!

kelip kelip kelip kiriiiii

..mak ckp mksdnye ad smone nk jmpe..ad smone nk dtg.. lately..mate kiri ak bnyk kali kelip.. yeay!!! good news!! tp ak xpnh tau pesal.. until one day..

bawang cntct ak blek.. i must be happy..dun i?? almost 3weeks since she left me without any word.. sooo..skarang dpt la ak dgr sore die blek.. XD <3 style="text-align: center;">**************************************************

rye thn ni..ak rs mcm ad smting yg len..ntah la..good things i mean..not bad the one's... regarding my dad.. ain's chocolate party yg da 3thn tertangguh..

tp yg penting pasal bpk ak..mak ckp smting good happen to him..if it's true..then alhamdulillah..

Ramadhan's back

as usual..bulan yg mulia dtg lg.. pose..terawikh..buke sme2..time ni la dpt mkn kurma freeeee!!! hahaha..

tp da dekat 21thn ak hadap Ramadhan..ak xpnh rs ske..same goes for hari raye.. i hate it..not 'fucking hate'..just a simple hate..dats all..

sbb time bulan ni la yg besenye ak sakit jiwa ak..jiwa mak ak n adik2 ak sakit.. ak mls nk open story lg kat cni..ak da cite kat ain..ak da cite kat syar.. ak xlarat nk bkk otak ak cr smue tu blek..cursed memories.. ak bg la 1 cnth..pe prasaan korang kalo mlm b4 rye..ad gado.. then bgn pg tu..salam2..nanges2 ckp mintak maaf.. hey..wtf is dis hah??? as if ko bole wat smue dajal kat org..then ble smpai time rye ko bole mntk maaf..just like dat?! i dun fucking thing so laa..

bnd yg ak tau rye ni..bj rye ak still maroon lg kaler die..sbb bj tu ak pkai since ak f2 lg..smpai skarang sbb tu je bj rye ak yg ak ad..n ak pkai time rye je.. condition?? tiap kali pkai time rye nmpk mcm bj baru!!! hahaha..so mmg ak xpnh nk ad bj rye br.. sbb ak xpnh ad feel br pasal rye.. until ad smting spesel pasal rye..then br ak tukar bj.. ak ingat nk bj kaler navy blue..cool x syar?? haha.. one day mayb..

hottie!!!

i miss my aussie hottie..
kteorg x calling kalo nk cntct..
juz msg je.. almost like 24-7 ak cr die..
really bored without her laaaa...pfffttt...

spe2 tlg urut ak? 1 bdn ak rosak da..hahaha

shity things in just 1 day..

ak baget nk post blog ni smlm..tp smlm xdpt tenet plak.. so..shitty things dat happenned on wednesday..4 august 2010..

1. kre smlm b4 shitty day ni.. ad la 3 mmbr ak men rogol2 dlm blek..kteorg namekan bnd tu 'utm rogol' mne2 dieorg g pown cmfrm ad even tu.. so dieorg dok jerit2 lalak2 kol 2 3 pg..smpai la ad 4 org pak arab dtg.. 'who's incharge here?!' pak arab tu kecoh bising la.. so pndk kan cite.. esoknye plak.. dtg 3 org pejabat cr kteorg..ckp pengetue nk jmpe cz arabitch..not arabic..smlm report kat ofis.. pantek tol!! kecoh syal.. korang bikin bau cengkih 1 aras kteorg x kecoh plak.. korang kencing kat singki kteorg x kecoh pown.. hampeh..

2. time training rugby..ad 1 mamat ni name 'tada'.. ak tatau cmne nk eje tp bnyi simple cmtu je la.. kecoh dow mamat tu.. mentang2 die player utm..muke2 cm ak n mmbr ak die xpnh nmpk.. yela..ak mls tun utm wakil utm cz ak xske coach die.. cr ckp mcm ak xgeti men lgsg plak.. dey..ak men utk kolej n ak rs kolej ko slame ni x pnh menang pown ngan kolej ak time ak men.. so dun mess around.. da name training..xkn ak nk tackle mmbr sndr btol2..nk jerit2 smue.. kalo ko suh tackle ko ok.. i'll make sure tu last ko turun pdg.. ad gak mamat yg kecoh ngan status wakil utm die.. hahahah.. mcm dak2 je..

3. sup ayam cambell *salah eje kowt* +roti+sabun.. hahahaha.. ak basuh mangkuk tu gne sabun lux..ak rs da siram bnyk kali da.. tp bau sabun tu ad je.. ptt ak mkn roti rs mcm pedas2 sabun je..hahahah... ak da la lapa..dpt plak masak sup cmtu rs..hahaha.. pastu masak megi plak..lapa lg..hehehe

4. arini men futsal x menjadi la.. kaki ak 2 2 belah mcm sakit kat tulang.. rs sejuk je kat bahagian keting ke bawah.. da mcm org tue da men..hahaha.. weekend plak ad match rugby..between kolej je.. bajet thn lps last men rugby..siap buang bot bola lg mcm simbolik last game.. skali thn ni sangap nk men plak.. da kabot nk cr bot.. ak try pinjam bot mmbr arab ak *he's a nice guy* die punye mcm 2 3 kali lg besa dr ak.. tp bot die ak x muat..nk masok abes kaki pown xle.. dude..kecik plak kaki die pe??

5. zaini dtg..pfffftttt.. korang xknl die.. die dak cos ak ms first year da kuar cz ambk pilot under MAS.. die mcm ske ckp besa sket..tu yg kteorg mls lyn die.. td blek futsal die da tercegat dpn pintu..xle wat pe la.. ayat manis la kuar 'oiii..lme xnmpk'.. hahaha die cite la pramugari sne smue target dak2 kedet.. dak kedet ni pilot trainy lg la.. pramugari tu ajak paung geli..ckp die dtg kat kadet sbb nk mntk ehem2.. die kte die ad 3 pmpn ajak die..hahahahah.. ko kedet yg last kowt dpt pmpn..hahaha.. tp kalo ak tau best cmtu..ak pown nk jd pilot MAS..hahah.. ms praktikal dl ak slalu gak masok hanger MAS..xpown lpk je kat airport.. so ad la 1 2 stewardess Fire Fly nye aircraft yg ak kdg2 borak skali.. dieorg stewardess fire fly slalu mlm yg sng nmpk.. ak plak mmg mlm slalu lpk airport sj2 je.. pe yg mmbr ak zaini ckp tu mmg btol la.. dieorg pnh ajak ak dtg umah dieorg.. kalo weekend ajak kuar pastu tido umah dieorg.. naaaahhhh.. ak muke nmpk tue tp sbnrnye mude..korang tue la pd ak stewardess..hahaha.. till next time..

bnyk woo bnd shit jd dlm 1 ari.. 5 bnd!!! dem ah..

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p/s: ur back bawang..hahaha.. tot u'd forgotten me oledi.. xksh pown kalo awk da lpe kan sy.. i saw past few days.. awk ngan die mkin ok..haha.. dats why sy xksh kalo awk nk pegi.. sy da dlt smue msg awk n no awk sbnrnye.. i dun want u to act like how ain did to me.. so b4 u did it.. bek sy sndr yg pegi..xd la sy sakit sngt.. i really do luv u.. tp awk xpnh nk phm sy.. awk nk sy je yg phm awk.. ble sy phm pe yg awk nk.. awk stil xle nk phm pe yg sy nk.. so sy ke yg salah? pe yg sy nk awk phm psl sy.. awk ketepikan je ngan alasan 'tolong phm sy anep'.. if my destiny is with u..then i'll luv u..just the way i used to luv u.. but if not..i'll just go.. sy xkn sedeh ble ms tu jd..sy xkn mntk second chance.. sy akan lpe kan awk on da spot.. sy yakin sy bole lpe kan spe 'yasmin'.. tp sy tak yakin sy bole lpe kan pe yg sy da wat spnjg sy knl die.. takes some times..but i'll deal with it..hahahah..

kelip2 mate..

mate kiri ak lately asek kelip2 je.. mak ckp kalo kelip kiri means good news..insyallah.. kanan means bad news..

aritu ad kelip kanan skali.. rpenye ofis bpk ak kne pecah masok..abes smue kompite kne cilok.. tp ak plek.. nk masok ofis tu kne lalu 5 security lock.. padlock..kad scanner..kunci grill lg.. ssh2 nk masok tp cme kaut 4 monitor n cpu.. len nye brg die xcilok.. brg kecik2 yg bole wat jual mcm lampu garam ke..printer ke..xambk pown.. ak pown pelek pehal la..

so rite know..da 3 4 ari mate kiri ak kelip..smting good is going to happen!!! yeay!! tp ak tatau pe yg nk jd.. ak x mengharapkan smting.. lately plak xd bnd best ke jd kat ak.. so mmg x clear pe suprise yg akan ak dpt...

ain's gonna be back???
syar's gonna be back??

xd pe yg ak arapkan utk rye kali ni slaen dieorg ad kat msia..

suprise3!!! cpt la bgtau ak....

i bet.. it's ain..she's coming back.. cz syar xd duit nk blek..die abeskan 12ribu utk umah sewe..tp kalo kelip lg skali pas ain blek..means syar plak..

dare to bet???? hahah

what a nite..

i feel sorry 4 myself..
dun know why..cant tell u guys..

kalo syar ad kat msia bole msg2 die..sronok bazir kred msg ngan die..hahaha

ad lektrik..yeehaaa

currently listening to: warmness of the soul (our song)

mood: not so good..smting went wrong with her..

facial expression : br pas shave!!! jambu la sket.. ala bieber..hahaha



dpt la on9.. bc psm lg..hahaha.. dieorg kte xd lektrik arini pttnye.. td blackout kjap..xsmpai 5min ad lg..nsb bek.. kalo x tido bogel la jwbnye..rumate pown xd.. party buih!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha..


imy..wat's wrong dear...
i'd waited for u almost an hour.. guess u'd fell asleep.. it's ok..
naka naide ok...