my wedding~~

ok jgn terkejot smue.. tenang2~~ ak blom nk kawen lg.. tajok tu nmpk mcm 'PERGH!!' je kan.. ahaaa.. ni ak nk show sket brg2 prop ak insyallah ble ak kawen nnt..

supposedly time wedding tu kre mcm ari bersejarah kan..for every of us.. so i intend to make my history in my own style.. kan lps wedding bese ad sesi2 tgkp gmbr ngan bini kan.. pose bwh pokok laa.. pose ngan background tepi laut la konon.. pkai bj2 tradisional mlayu ke..kimono or sari or tux ke..

well not for me.. my 'suits' will be my props..in this case..the props are my swords!! owhyeah~~ i intend to have these 2 sword b4 my wedding.. so bole la gne time snap2 gmbr nnt ye..

this will be my sword:



Kurosaki Ichigo's Tensa Zangetsu from the Bleach anime.. completely black from tip to hilt and with chains..sweettttt~~~





how's this 4 my wife?? Kuchiki Rukia's Sode no Shirayuki also from Bleach anime.. pure white from tip to hilt.. beautiful..and deadly..


sumpah cool la kalo dpt bnd ni time kawen nnt.. gua ngan bini gua ad pedang masing2..

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i really prefer my old time feveret sword.. Dante's Rebellious from Devil May Cry 3.. this is awesome!! but..it would be a like demon's wedding.. how horror laaa..cmfrm parents ak ngamok..hahaha..

Rebellious.. just like me~~

there should be another sword.. Cloud's sword from the movie Storm Warriors.. xjmpe la plak kat link yg dayu kasi..hmmmmm.. mayb kat kedai len nye website kowt die lpe bg.. die kte kat singapore ad 3 kedai yg jual those replicas.. deeeyyyymm!!! ak da plan ngan dayu nk g singapore after/before our graduation..nk g bli pedang tu!!

problemnye takot xlps kat kastam je..adoi~~~ dude..i wont kill najib with a Tensa Zangetsu or Rebellious.. it's a waste and a stupid act..


hmmmmmmm~~~ my precious~~

so we met again~~

i'm hurting..
again..and so much..

i'm hurting..
knowing you're so close to me..in my thoughts..
but far away from my reach..

though your presence is a wound..
your absence left me a scar..

i could carry all the pain but your tears..
that is the truth..
and i promise you..

bound by rules

she's 1 of my fren in utm that actually knows me.. we kinda have a thing in the past..a little..hahaha.. smtimes an angel comes not like what u expected =)

yess..i hv too many rules which restrains myself from involving with anything in this world..i'd made it myself..since i was little.. i saw what others did to others.. i heard what people said about others.. having some rules which helps me to separate myself from doing what others were doing seems to be fair enough..

unfortunately..when u bound urself with those rules for too long..u'll eventually loose ur feelings.. u can't tell when is the right time to do things when u suppose to do.. u cant tell that this is love..that is sad.. this is okay..that is reasonable..

1 of my rule is being patient..

i saw what my dad did when he lost his temper.. what he did to me..to mom.. therefore i'd created a circle around me.. never to loose patient in whatsoever condition.. end up i can even speak for my right.. it's always like 'dat's ok'.. or 'nevermind'.. i'm not scared.. it's juz smtimes i dun wanna mess my head with smting that's not so important.. small misunderstandings blablabla.. i'm not scared..i'd broke the rule once..end up beating 3guys and the school had me suspended for 10days..hahahaha..

other example..being nice to others

mom always remind me.. be good with others..take care their feelings.. dun u follow like ur dad..control ur temper.. so yeah..i've always put my frends needs ahead from my own needs.. as long as others happy..i'm fine with it.. no matter what mom do..i'll follow her.. then comes osya n said 'u got to give urself a chance Nep...' she's so like a mom..hahaha..

sex and women..

they r my rules too..hahahaha!! i dun hv a gf because of that rule.. i say..never touch a girl.. the next thing..i dun stalk on gurls..i dun stalk their butts or boobs.. 1 thing led to another..now i dun feel anything for them.. ain will say 'ko cpt horny la nep!!' yeap..if it is a conversation about sex.. but in real world.. picking up gurls..then no..i'm not that horny..i do feel the needs to have smone smtimes..but~~~ juz a thin feeling..a moment thought like 'ad gf pown mcm best..hehehe' then after 1 day i totally forgot about it.. i'm single for 10years now (but my heart is always there..muahaha)..how cool is dat!!! naaaaahh..it sux..


i'm trying to hold back my rules.. give myself a chance to enjoy things around me.. i've always thought that these rules will help to create a perfect me..but no..

nobody's perfect..
rules are meant to be broken..
we cant be perfect because there's no fun in being perfect..

if u merge their meanings.. it will say :

An imperfect person will break the rules juz to have fun..

how bout that..i've made it up myself..cool rite??

IT'S OVER!!

IT'S FUCKING OVER!!!! WOOOOOOOOWWW!!!

it's friday..7.32pm n i juz came back from my very last paper for my degree!!!

I'M SUCH A BADASS!!!!

so what?? i'm lazy..

dis coming friday..will be my very last exam paper since tadika.. HOOMAIGOOODDD!!!! if i'm decided not to further my study to Master level..which i'm sure as hell will not take it!!

enuf2..seriously no more books dudes.. i need new atmosphere.. student life is when u gain knowledge from books.. in real world..u learn things from others.. some might say 'nnt da keje br ko rindu zaman skola..' blablabla~~ ak rindu zaman skola sejak ak masok utm lg.. life kat utm sux.. i'll tell some stories bout my life in utm..after i graduate from here..

back to last paper td.. propulsion!!! friday..2.30pm.. ad 10chapter n ak br abes 5chapter..siap toyol..hahahaha!!! tp ya Allah...malas nye nk study~~~ bkk je buku..mule gatal tgn nk dgr lagu laa..playing with my drum sticks..tgk drama love story in havard.. that korean gurl is sooooooooo cute! i've always pick asians rather than european..bollywoodians or hollywoodian..

tgk!! ak nk cite pasal last paper ak propulsion tp ak ngarot smpai nk ambk master..recap pasal zaman skola laa..n hot korean chick..

nmpk sngt bkn stakat xle nk study..nk sebot name subjek tu pown ak da mle melilau..

demmmm~~~that chick's really cute..

the name's kim tae hee..

between languages..i choose japanese..but between faces..korean definitely beat japanese.. the difference between a japanese and a korean gurl is that korean gurl tend to look more natural than japanese..try google and u will see it.. plus i hate that damn ducklip posed by almost all japanese gurl..pfftttt...



how bout that??? so little gurls out there..if u thing u r soo damn ugly duckling..wait till u reach 20.. u'll not just become a swan..but a goddess!! trust me..i got a whole bunch of goddess around me..hahaha..

principles ma ass

i'm tired holding to my principles..holding to what i believe..what i think is true..what i think is real..

1 of my principle is..what goes around..comes around.. what i'd experienced..what goes around..oh they NEVER comes around! especially when u did good things.. u gave ur fren some water to drink..the next thing u'll know he jus kept the bottle to himself.. that son of a bitch..

bad deeds..they surely comes around when u did it.. that's when people say 'dun mess with karma..' so karma's a bad omen at this point.. i dun believe in karma..but i believe in revenge..i dun let others clean up my mess..i'll do it on my own.. karma can say goodbye..

that 1 principle..ruin my whole life till now.. others might say 'be patient..ur time will come soon..' soon as in 2hours soon?? 2days soon?? 2years soon or forever soon??? i've been patient this whole while n nothing good came..no..nothing..zero..dust.. they say imma good guy and eventually i'll get my reward..the way i see, bad guys (not like killers or robbers) gets what they want..they satisfied..and they're happy! now thats a '2hours' soon..bravo!

i'm gonna change..
i'll not wait for good things to come..i'll find them..and take them..
screw u karma..i write down my own destiny..
i dun want to here anyone say 'what goes around comes around..' bullshit..

except for justin timberlake.. he can sang it for me..why not..he got scarlet johanson..hahahaha

time

the only thing that can change one's heart..
the only thing that can change one's destiny..
the only thing that can change one's desire..
the only thing that can change EVERYTHING in this world..

is TIME..


adik ak da jmpe parents ak blek.. thanx God..
mayb da smpai ms adik ak ni nk berdikari btol2..
so this time..die btol2 kuar umah tp ngan restu parents ak..
that's ok with me..

i'm their brother..my job is to protect them..not love them..that's how i'd been trained..

i manage to hack into both their fb acc..hehehe.. dieorg jmpe kat papa rich xsilap ak kat prima gombak tu.. demmmm..time2 pokai ni kalo dpt bpk ak blanje orait gak.. tssskkk..tp ak mne pnh mntk duet dr die wlpn ak ngan pokai..gaaaa

time changes people..say hello to my 'new' dad..bahaha

and the story of shaharudin's family continues..