for my 22nd besday..i want to be born again..

less then 24hours early from my real d.o.b.. sj nk post awal2.. sbb cmfrm sok pg ak bgn lmbt..then ptg tros nk grk g shpg kat teberau..mayb smpai mlm n ak rs mcm da penat nk ber blog pastu.. jumaat plak nk praktis jamming cz sabtu nk jam..yeehaaaa!!!

tp arini pown ak da start shopping..hahahaha!!! ak ni mmg xske bli brg..especially bj or suar.. slagi bole pkai..ak pkai je..lgpn ak ni bkn jns pkai brg kasi rosak.. bj2 ak smue da xkurang dr 5thn la.. mayb kaler nmpk kelam tp condition ok je.. heyyy..bj rye ak yg 1 and only maroon tu ak pkai dr f2..until now..n mayb until i die!!! bj tu kalo ak jual blek ngan harge rm200 pown ad org nk bli..sbb kaler maroon die lgsg xbrubah mcm ak mle2 bli dl.. sbb dl ak ske bli bj besa2..so bole pkai lme2..hahaha

so arini shopping bj je da rm110 kowt ak rs..4 helai bj je pown.. 1 bj ni yg mahal..rm60.. shiroi neko nye brand.. mayb xfeymes among org2 yg vogue smue tu cz brand ni design bj rock2 band..rock metal ke.. led zepplin..rolling stones..bob dylan.. some stuffs like dat la.. ak nk upload gmbr tp smpai je blek ak tros bsh bj tu!!! so next time ak upload gmbr k..

enuf with shopping..da mcm pmpn plak ak nk cite pasal bj dlm blog..hahah

there r some other things yg ak nk..ble ak mkin besa ni.. i cant say it here.. put it in a simple sentence.. ak nk life yg tenang..i want my old life back.. dl ms ak kecik2..ak slalu ikot atok ak g masjd..dgr ceramah every week..dok tanye2 pasal ilmu agama..ngaji al-Quran.. back when i was little..

ak xkte ak da totally lpe smue tu..xamalkan smue tu.. ak amalkan..but not as often like i used to do.. kalo dl org tgk ak..tau ak ni dak g msjd smue.. tp skarang org xkn pasan ak cmtu.. ble ak wat smting or open smting je..nnt dieorg mcm 'aik..ko tau ke??' xpown.. 'cmne ko tau?' mcm ak ni tatau pape pasal agama nye org.. ak xslh kan dieorg pown..clearly it was me..

dl sbb ak dikelilingi ngan smue tu..org xkn question ak sbb tau ak 1 golongan ngan dieorg..tp life ak skarang..ak jauh sket dr smue tu..mcm keliling ak da len so org xpasan ak ni cmni..smpai kdg2 ak sndr lpe ak ni cmne yg spttnye..

every night ak dok pk pe yg ak pnh wat..pe yg ak da wat..pe yg ak nk wat.. kdg2 terdetik dlm diri ak.. 'wadefak da jd kat ak skarang ni..'

kalo dl org tgk ak..even first time pown..dieorg ckp ak bek.. tp skarang..only certain je tau ak cmni..the rest akan ckp 'ak pk ko ni gengster ms mle2 knl ko'.. actually..i'm not comfortable with dat.. ak trase gak la tp ble da slalu je org ckp cmtu so ak pown da bese la.. lgpn bkn slh dieorg..dieorg cme ckp pe yg dieorg nmpk.. ak trase bkn sbb dieorg..tp sbb diri ak sndr.. npe org kasi first impression ak cmtu?? what did i do wrong?

all i'm saying is dat..i miss my old life and surroundings.. i wish dat mayb someday..i can be like i used to be..like what i should be.. i wish someone can guide me.. ye ak laki..laki spttnye bg tnjk ajar.. no..i dun buy dat kind of bullshit.. smue org perlukan smone or smting utk guide dieorg..utk motivate dieorg.. n ak xrs malu lgsg kalo smone yg akan guide ak ni lg lemah dr ak..lg kecik dr ak..lgpn pndai dr ak or pape je la..

as long as i'm guided by smone..ak akan make sure yg akan ak guide diri ak supaye ak dpt bantu org yg guide ak tu..sme2 saling support..saling mengingati.. pe yg kehendak agama ak nk..pe yg Allah perintah..

i wish to be born again..back when there's no single sin in my heart..

p/s: ingat nk call mak la sok..rindu kat mak..nk cite kat die yg ak bli bj..hehehehe.. nite smue..
to syarnissa..thanx cz wish ak.. rindu nk chat sama kamoooo =)
to ain..i'm waiting 4 urs..grrrrr.. nk skaft ain!!! skaft!! hahaha