nape jd kat ak??

ak nk ngadu kat ko osya..ak nk msg ko..mayb call ko..tp ak tau ko ngan bz skarang ni..exms kan? so i'll jus spill it out here..mne tau ko free ko bole la bc2 ke..

adik ak br bgtau ak..sorang adik ak ni da wat balik tabiat lme die.. stealing money.. my dad's money.. ak tatau dr mne die blaja bnd tu..or why her mentality cmtu.. ak pown pnh curik duet bpk ak..tu smue ms kecik2..1 2 ringgit.. but i learned my lesson.. we all do mistakes b4 we learn smting rite?? tp adik ak ni xpnh brubah.. u know kalo abah ak pukol cmne.. skali je da cukup pengajaran da..

br2 ni mate kanan ak kelip2 lg.. many times..i know shits gonna happen cme ak xjangke bnd ni akan jd..atau berulang lg.. she stole rm1000.. God knows how many she really did stole b4 dat.. bnyk tu syar die curik..bkn siket.. i dun care kalo die xtakotkan Tuhan ke tp ngan cr bpk ak pukol tu..xkn die xtakot kowt?? skarang die da lari umah sbb bpk ak pukol die.. of kos bpk ak pukol die.. she's stealing..fucking 1000ringget..

ak abg dieorg syar.. it's true i dun get along with them but i know exactly each 1 of them.. deep down ak tau smpai skarang..adik ak ni wat smting blakang parents ak.. smtimes ak dpt feeling tu..smtimes ak dpt tau die wat tp ak snyp je.. ak tau kalo die kantoi mmg terok kne.. pe ak wat syar?? i cant talk to them properly..angkat tgn lg la xmgkn.. i swore not to be like abah..but things just keep on coming beyond my limit.. kalo dieorg wat smting ak cbe nk ttp kan dieorg..when they do smting ak mesti ad ngan dieorg so nmpk pe dieorg wat tu btol..pdhl ak tau kalo abah tau mesti die xske.. i do everything 4 them tp nape ak kne balas cmni.. at some point ak mcm dpt phm prasaan abah slame ni.. he'll do anything 4 us but we gave him shits instead..no wonder die ngamok..

adik ak ni ske wat hal syar..it will involved all of us.. when my dad pukol..hell he done care who's wrong or who's not..if ur there..ko kne gak.. n mak yg slalu kne..tahan2 adik ak ni.. mak slalu ckp wat smting ingat mak.. tp nape sore mak tu xpnh masok dlm jiwe die.. i dun understand it.. asal mak tahan smone kne pukol..die la orgnye.. asal smone wat hal..die la orgnye.. skarang..pndgn ak kat adik ak ni da mle brubah.. i know what she did..skarang ni smue bnd yg ak mcm rs2 je..ak rs bnd tu smue btol2 jd.. imaginations becomes reality..

i saw her pictures..pkai dedah2 sne sni..ble ak ckp dedah sne sni ko phmkan mksd ak.. kuar ngan laki mne2 tah..ckp bukan2.. pelok mne2 laki.. syar.. ak abg dieorg sndr ssh nk pgg pmpn..much less nk pelok.. wadehell?? n because of dat pic..i knew die ponteng kelas.. cz die xkn bole kuar umah pkai singlet je.. ak sedeh syar.. ak slalu pk biar pkai cmne..janji hati tu btol.. skarang..i dun thing her heart is on da right side.. hell i dun think she's my sister anymore..

this is too much syar.. i got my own life..and its already miserable enough.. i lied to u syar.. almost a month da hidop ak kucar kacir.. ak riso slalu..ak sdh slalu.. i cant sleep..

if u read this syar..tlg doakan ak.. i'm not much of a saint..but i know what i'm doing.. ak mayb blek umah weekend ni.. see how things going..

syarnissa..ak mntk maaf sbb tipu ko.. plis 4give me k...