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last post : 8 october 2012..

i'm back cocksuckersss!!!

this blog is where i shre my feelings with myself.. soo..here i am ^^

lot of things have change..myself..my friends..some never change..like my family..

1. myself

i dont know how to describe it..but i know that i have changed.. somehow i think my life's getting quite fun..i'm happy with it.. but as i'm getting happier..sadness and pain runs at the same speed.. there are certain things that i felt regret so much.. inside my heart, i feel a bit lonely.. memories from my past.. i often cried during the nights.. literally..crying.. not like all out crying during first day of syawal like my grandma used to do ..not like that laa

2. my friends

and also my family.. ones that i can count on to share happiness and sadness.. man to man style yaw~~ this 'family' always missing a person.. example..i was 2 months out from kl.. as soon as i get back in kl..abu plak kne g nek kapal.. then abu came back.. as we wait the final piece of puzzle to get back.. abu kne nek kapal balik for 3 months.. in return..cur plak smpai isi tempat kosong.. but the crew is getting bigger.. mael ad awek baru..cur ngan awek die.. by this end of this year..supposedly fardiana..ainun and abu nk bertunang..

me? next 2 years ok..just wait for it~~

3. my family

ramadhan is getting nearer.. to all muslims..this is the month that they hv been waiting for.. but for me.. this is the month where i scared the most.. frankly speaking..the percentage of fighting..beating..cursing like shits during this time is the highest.. it's like all the satans were chained inside my house..

i'm scared of ramadhan..and will always be scared..

i just cant wait hv my own family.. that will be my very first happy welcoming ramadhan.. amin~