Persistent

imagine a 4 years old kid.. 2 kinds of kids..2 different situation

kid 1.

kid 1 : ayah..nk mainan tu bole?
ayah : xbole..kan umah da ad bnyk kan...
kid 1 : alaaaa..nk jugak mainan tu..
ayah : da2..jom balik..asek2 bli mainan je..
kid 1 : nk jugak nk jugak nk jugak!!
ayah : haa ye la ye la~~


kid 2.

kid 2 : ayah..nk mainan tu bole?
ayah : tak bole..da ad da kan mainan kat umah..
kid 2 : alaaa..nk jugak
ayah : ko nk pelingkup kan duet ak je kje kan..
kid 2 : .........


some people say..if u really want something..u got to be persistent and keep on asking for it (this context is based on permission needs).. just like Kid 1, he's being persistent in demanding what he wants..eventually, the father x smpai hati pastu bg pe yg anak die nk.. as for Kid 2..should he asked it for the third time..he probably got his ass whopped at the shop..or in the car..or when they got home..

i am the second one..Kid 2..
sejak kecik lg..bpk ak da ajar ak..kalo nk smting..tanye die..kalo die kte xbole the first time..means TAK BOLEH..kalo die snyp je xjwb pape..means TAK BOLEH gak.. if u ask it again for the second time..either kne maki or kene libas..

imagine how i grew up in this kind of life..i was trained with this so called bullshit manners since i was a little kid..and i mean 4/5 years old kind of kid.. lme2..da sebati dlm diri ak.. kalo ak tanye skali..n ble bpk ak ckp tak bole..ak pown bla je.. xd nk argue pape.. full stop..

i still remember that time when i was just 7 years old..time tu kat genting highland..kteorg nk mkn kfc.. pastu time order..ak g la ngan bpk ak.. pastu ble nk order..ak ckp la nk ayam..nugget..kentang..bpk ak ckp bnyk gler order.. ye ah..sbb ak pikir skali order utk adik2 ak.. so bpk ak order.. then ble time mkn..kteorg x abes la mkn ayam n kentang ape bende smue laa.. pastu bpk ak mrh..ak still ingat lg smpai skarang pe die ckp..

'ko order bnyk2 kan..ko sumbat smue..xabes siap ko'

for god sake..i was 7 years old ms tu.. kat dlm kfc tu..ak smbil nanges2 cbe mkn bg abes..mak tlg tepok2 blakang ak sbb ak mcm terbatok2 cbe abes smue mknn.. and sejak dr tu..sejak umur ak 7thn..ak xpnh mntk pape dr bpk ak.. meaning mntk bnd2 mcm mknn..mainan ke.. if die nk bg..ak ambk..kalo x..ak xmntk kat die..

up until now..ak xgeti nk memintak2 ngan org len..ak xgeti nk pakse2 org.. whether nk pinjam brg or pasal cinta.. i only relate this story to a relationship problem only because of what awani's trying to advise me.. die ckp ak ad 1 mslh..die ckp ak x tegas dlm hal relationship.. example..kalo ak ajak 1 pmpn kuar..kalo pmpn tu kte xnk..ak pown snyp je..kalo pmpn tu kte suh tgu..ak pown tgu la smpai 2 3 jam.. die kte ak kne memintak..kne pndai pakse.. kalo pmpn tu xnk kuar..die suh ak pujuk bnyk2 kali..kalo pmpn tu suh tgu..ckp kat pmpn tu yg da janji sekian2 ms so die kne tepati ms..

yeah..she wants me to be persistent..which for me..is soooo fucking hard because im not used to be a persistent.. im more like a go-to kind of guy..heart to heart..transparent in communication.. if yes means yes..if no means no.. if you hv smting to tell me..then tell me because god knows..i dont and will not know a single shit if u dont tell me.. not to say that i dont hv a single clue bout my gf's (if i have one) problem or what she wants.. all im saying is that it would be a lot easier if she phrase it to me directly..

there's a fine line between being blur..and dont give a damn.. im not blur..in fact..im good at knowing people's heart.. its just that i dont a give a damn.. relationship is about 2 way communication.. if i have to use magic crystal ball everytime i want to know what my gf is thinking..bek xyah ad gf..

thats why i will never be a persistent.. i want people around me to be happy as they like..not to be happy as what i want.. sorry Osya..ak still pentingkan org len more dr diri ak sndr..