Cermin

 disclaimer! i dont know if ni part of your plan or not.. soooo..i'm just saying what i felt only..

i was there dengan kau selama yang aku ingat..
aku tgk kau dari dekat, dari jauh, dari kecik dan sampailah kite besar sama2.. for me, i had soo many stories with you. baik yg happy sedih marah.. you remember tak kite tarik muke dekat rumah izzati? haha

yes i told mak your situation because mak lalui bende yg sama.. so she  said, 'if she come, i have to help'.. despite our 'miscomm-propose-reject situation' .. yes mak tau jugak yg i proposed and you rejected me.. hahaha.. 

not helping you bukanlah option yg aku nk pilih pun..

aku just terpikir.. if mak kene maki or pukol..i understand she cant do shit sbb da ade anak lah..dah kahwin lahh..blablabla.. 

but if i'm helping you..yang tak kahwin lagi whatsoever..baru kenal 2 3 months.. if i help you..and you go back to him later.. then wth am i here for just then? bukanlah nk cakap chose me.. im saying if i help you, and u dive in back in the same situation, with the same person yg baru kenal 2 3 bulan.. then seriously..wth am i here for??

but untuk aku, this is you i'm talking about.. and kau pun tau..kau meow, i come..hehehe..

im not sure if it's the wrong nuggets, or u just dont want to see me, or maybe aku yg confuse dalam storyline ni ke aku pun tak sure dah.. you looked at me mcm aku annoying..maybe the facemask ke.. but i can see your smile keluar dengan die.. you havent contact me since then..baru 2 hari la..but..~~

also, you took the words right out of my mouth..

aku taktau whether ni part of your plan to take your stuff and chow ke, or maybe the words are just fucking similar to what i would say to you.. 

and you, said it to ken..

aku taktau ni just coincidence ke kan.. but i'm definitely sure 'we' share those connections.. dont you remembered me at all?? i really hope ni just part of your plan, and for some reason dah kire takdir la utk kau tulis ayat camtu.. i just hope thats the story lah..

" took me awhile to realise that you always put my needs above yours. Effortlessly showing me what unconditional love really means. Thank you for constantly trying to keep me happy, supporting me towards my goals and never giving up on us. All my worries is yours and all that is yours is mine too.

Lets stay together, my mirror. And please keep buying me herbal jelly"

Those are your words..

probably it's just me..

i was so happy bile dpt tau kau nak start fly dah.. but you left me hanging

i rushed cari nugget tu.. then you just left me hanging.. you dont even lambai tangan pun.. and i thought kau maybe still trauma and not in good shape as u said before.. so itssookayy lah kan..

then today..saw your post, read that post..aku just cannot brain that ken gets to get that beautiful words.. mix feeling gile bile baca sbb the words are soo nice and calming.. but aku, personally knowing that the guy there hit you and called you a whore.. it sickens me.. im not sure lps baca tu aku mcm ade nak nanges..mcm nak muntah pun ade..angry,,but not so much, but also hoping yg ni just part of your plan untuk pick up smue barang kau dulu then ciao from him for good.. and those words are just a coincidencely same mcm ape dlm kepala aku.. 

just layan je kerenah ken dulu (sbb gmbr tu pun aku tgk is not your own picture..it's him taking a selfie, and you posted it.. and appreciation post with a picture of the day, must be taken by you, yourself, should the posting is deep and real and meaningful as fuck' - aku rase lahh

if i were you and 'that' is the plan..

i would do the same too.. 

baru 3bln kenal, apelah sangat kan, goreng2 sket ayat, dpt greenlight collect barang balik..kutip2 and blah lahh.. harith yg bertahun kenal pun aku tgk tak dapat appreciation post cmtu. so, ini kan plak org yg baru lps abuse kau..

you are smart Ain.. so, aku just harap ni part of the plan lah.. and since we would do the same stuff if we were in the same situations, aku just pikir yg one side akan jadi jeles abit.. which in this story, Ain kene bla dari psycho ni, and aku kene on standby.. something cmtu ah..hahaha.. hence, i'm the jealous one this time..

worst case scenario : 

aku delusional.. 

you really are back with ken.. 

and im here just looking stupid taktau pape cite.. i was confused since the beginning.. so there might be a chance yang aku ni bercakap sorang2.. who knows.. Allah je lah tahu.. 

if itu lah situasi die..then i just dont want to think about it anymore.. im not saying aku lah yg paling care dekat kau.. but seriously? he snapped your neck and called you a whore..

i was with you throughout the years! i was all along with you, next guy to the next guy..and none of them hit you pun.. i was there at the police station Ain.. Ken is a different story.. i never make any scene pun before sbb to me all you bfs were just another bfs.. takde ape yg pelik.. normal lah untuk manusia tukar2 pasangan i guess..thats life.. but he, this 1 only.. abuse you and call you a whore.. a word yang aku tak pernah guna dengan kau pun..

i might understand situasi mak..sbb dah kahwin and ade tanggungjawab anak blablabla..

but you just met him for 3 months.. and dapat  compliment dari kau dah..not fair

 

even my blog is older than 3months..hahahaha! every life ade story die maybe.. this is just me, my own story.. maybe bertepuk sebelah tangan, but if that tangan is mine, then it is still me, my own story.. 

i shall keep on walking.. see what's what i guess.. 

kite start balik dekat story nugget yang tergantung tu tadi then see how.. baru 2 hari..hahaha