What am i ea?

i keep on questioning myself.. 

who am i in this story?? 
if cite ni da habes..why am i still here?
if cite ni tak habes lagi..then still, why am i still here?

smtimes aku pikir aku character utama..

other times aku rs aku watak sampingan yg org x kesah pun ade ke x..but aku still kene ade..

what is love sebenarnye?

giving flowers? 

belanja makan? 

keluar sama-sama? 

late night calls?

saying those word "i love you"

sleeping together?

how did it start ea?? 

i'm practically doing the opposite from what i see jadi dalam rumah..

keluar la dengan pmpn..i dont keluar ngan pmpn sngt

have fun, you r a guy maa..normal lah.. instead i be like my mom.. choose one and stick to it..

saying i love you dont mean a thing dlm rumah.. thus, i dont really like to say it.. i want to..just that it's a heavy sentence for me..

smtimes aku question diri aku.. maybe cara aku ni jadi if aku nk perempuan ke..

instead of being the pain in the ass.. i choose to took the pain and stick to one.. 

being me is a bit sucks since my circle is quite, quite small..veryy small.. fucking 32 now..hahaha.. so either im facing milf..or kiddies..hahahah.. covid datang memang cantik sekali.. terus jelas kat muke aku yg i dont really have a lot of friends.. heh~ maybe time covid jd introvert seems nice.. tp kalau dr awal da introvert..mmg sucks ah bile time2 lockdown cmni..haha

 

rambling stuff and shit.. nk sambung buat video balik..let's go..

p/s: i guess i miss you again..